I Believe!

The way I look at life may be different from how others do. Ever since I was born, I have known that I am destined to be someone great in life. I know that I am destined to do something great and leave a mark in the history of this world, before I say goodbye to it. The purpose of my life here is to do something for the greater good of the people. And I have vowed to fulfill my purpose before I came to this world. I will keep my promise, I will find my way.

In this journey, there will be many people who would discourage me. They will try to bring my spirits down, but I must not lose my spirit. I must believe in myself.
Asth Aścio Gu’sth Awaeya – ‘What you think is what you are’.
To convert your dreams into reality, all you have to do is believe. Believe in your destiny. If there is anything that you want, if you really believe in it, then you’ll get it. All you have to do is work for it, and believe. There is nothing in this world that you cannot do. If you really want to do it, then you will. If there is a will there is a way. You will not have to go searching for your destiny, it will find you.

Is truth ugly?

We all like to believe that the world is a great place to live in, even if deep down we know that it is a lie. We want to believe that life is a great journey full of joy and surprises even though the truth is that life is a journey through both pleasure and pain. We choose to believe whatever that appears logical to us, although there are many things that are beyond the comprehension of our rational mind. We choose to believe things that would make us joyful and happy and never sad and depressed even if we know that it is all a lie.

Many times we choose to believe anything but the truth and then one fine morning reality hits us hard on our face. We finally realize the truth and then blame everything on it. We call truth ugly.

But are we right? I don't think so.

Let us look back to what I said first. I have begun my sentences with 'We like to believe', 'We want to believe' and 'We choose to believe'. This means that we have a choice whether and what to believe. We are always given a choice on what to believe and what not to. And often we make the mistake of making a choice on the basis of what we like or want and not on our perception of what is right and wrong (which again depends on whether your perception is right).

If we had chosen to believe the truth, the reality wouldn't have hit us that hard. The truth is and will always remain the same, it will never go wrong. So who is to be blamed - The truth or ourselves? Do you think that truth is ugly??
The truth is NOT ugly. It is profound, it is beautiful. However, it is our mind filled with illusions that perceives truth as ugly.

At the end of the day…

… and that’s life. At the end of the day, you have to shut down everything… That’s life… A lotta stuff running in your head…… but there is nothing more you can do about it than worry – and that’s a waste of time and energy… So, at the end of the day, all you can do is let go… When I say ‘let go’, this is what I mean… All that stuff running in your head…… all the thoughts about yesterday, today and tomorrow… let go of it from your head…… and see the thoughts and worries fly from your mind, above your head…… like a child let go of the balloon that was held tightly in its hand … then you see the balloon flying somewhere above your head… not within your reach … not within your sight… until its diminished and you can see it no more … sleep overcomes you…… your vision is dimming and the mind can’t take in anymore… the mind is shutting down…… in a few seconds you’ll be in a state of bliss…… you’ll be in a state of deep sleep… and the last thought that flicker in you head is ‘God, I leave it all to you… I am all yours, and so are my problems… and you better deal with it and do something about it’….

March

I am enjoying the awesomeness of March holidays. March holidays are awesome because pleasure can be experienced better after pain – it comes right after the end of exams and academic year. For the last three weeks of March, you don’t have to worry about school (except for one day – Open House) and there will be no holiday homeworks to remind you of the pain either. So all this means, three whole weeks of dong anything you want, unless your parents have other plans.

So here I am, lazing around doing hardly anything. My holiday routine has slightly differed. I wake up somewhere between 10-11:00 am and finish my breakfast by 12:30 – 1:00pm. Then I watch TV or open my laptop or read a book or play guitar or talk on phone. Then I have my lunch at around 3:30. And once I’m done, the same thing goes on for sometime until my mom comes home and I am given some work. Then I take an evening shower and do my prayers and after sometime I go to eat dinner. Then I watch another movie or we may go out somewhere or we will do something that would keep us awake till midnight. I only go to bed at around 1:00 or 2:00am.

But after sometime, you get bored of this routine. Then you grow desperate. And you go out to get some fresh air. At least, that is what happens to me. But whatever happens, you enjoy the holiday.

Laziness

One of the bad affects of these holidays is that it makes you very lazy and you will find it hard to get back to your school routine. Wait, you need to know what exactly laziness is – not that you don’t know what it is. Let’s put it this way – The phenomenon of not wanting to do anything that will require your brains or your skills and efforts is called laziness or simply, being lazy.

So what I wanted to say is that some people become very lazy that they don’t even feel like blogging – a good example is me. This is because you have to use some amount of brains or little effort to just open the laptop and Word document and then start typing what you like. When you are in the hands of the devil of laziness, you won’t even feel like doing simple things like blogging. There is no escape from this devil, until you listen to your heart – and NOT your mind – and with will power and determination, you over come it. But sometimes, even a kick or a yell from your Mom or Dad would do to wake you up from this spell – or even the thought of the day the school re-opens.

Getting back to the subject, I also found out during this holiday, that some of my friends were quite unfortunate. The 9^th and 10^th graders don’t get to enjoy the three weeks of holidays like how we do. 9th has bridge classes and 10^th had their exams going on still! All these people get is the last week of March for some relaxation. At first, I laughed looking at them. Then it hit me that I will be in the same position next year. I felt sorry for them and didn’t think of that anymore after.

One thing I couldn’t do this holidays was hanging out with my best buddies and it is a shame because we have been planning about this for a long time (nearly months) and it did not happen due to various problems.

There is something that I have been looking forward to this March – The shifting of house. I’ll soon blog on this.

So far I have been having a great time. But what keeps me worried is the thought of April 3^rd – the day when school re-opens. I would do anything to postpone that date because it is just another week or so away. However, I make sure that I live in the present and enjoy the present and every moment of this holiday because it will never come again.

Lyrics: Take me away (All I ever think about is you)

At last! I am done with the lyrics of All I Ever Think About Is You. But now the name (of the song) has been changed because it was a bit too long. The 2^nd, 7^th and 8^th lines have also been changed and the bridge is complete. This song sounds like a country love song.

Take me away

[Chords – Em, A]

Verse 1

When all the times I’m reminded

Of how my heart beats when you touch

And when you lock your arms around me

And you say, “I love you so much!”

The tears not letting me look at you

Keeps filling my eyes, clouding my sight

I wish you’re still here to wipe them

And tell me, “It’s all just gonna be alright”

Chorus

Every time I look in your eyes

Tryin’ to look beyond what lies

There’s nothing else I find than your love

Every waking moment I find

No other thoughts run in my mind

‘Cause all I ever think about is you

Verse 2

All night, awake in my bed, thinking of you

Sometimes, I forget to sleep!

Every minute there without you, missing you

So much, just hurts me so deep

Your kiss, so warm, puts me under this spell

And the world just spins around me

When you hold me there in your arms, it’s just

Somewhere I wish forever I could be

Oh …

Chorus (x2)

Bridge (x2)

Come and tell that you love me,

Hold my hands and look in my eyes

I feel so lost and incomplete,

‘Cause I’m yours, so take me away

Chorus

[Bridge]

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11:59 pm, 31st December 2010

“It is gonna be 2011 – New Year – in another minute!!!”

And I wished that minute was more than 60 seconds … why? Because I haven’t done many things that I should have done in 2010. But I welcomed 2011 with a smile on my face and joy in my heart.

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Friday 01-07-2011.

Now it is the year 2011, at last. It feels like 2010 was just a week ago, doesn’t it? *sigh!* Below is an interview between me and myself. I have answered 10 questions that are usually asked in New Year –

1) How was 2010? Do you miss it?

It was good. A lot of memorable events took place in this year. Nope, I don’t miss it.

2) How do you think 2011 is going to be?

I think its going to be really good (I’m trying to be positive. I believe in Law of Attraction). Well it started pretty well, you know, the first few days was spent in doing holiday homework!

3) How many resolutions did you break?

Let’s see …. (Counting) …. Umm…. (Lost count!) …. A few. One of the main resolutions that I broke was – Don’t make any resolutions.

I made some resolutions and I haven’t been very successful in following them, but surprisingly stuck to them almost all the time and much longer than any New Year resolutions made before.

4) What were these resolutions anyways?

This includes most of the ones that I haven’t broken (yet – and hopefully, will never), but not all are mentioned because some of them are personal. There are ten of them listed here. Well, they are as follows –

Resolutions

1. Write your personal + spiritual diary everyday (Following)

2. Stop eating chocolates (Impossible)

Which later became – Not more than 1 chocolate in 2 days (Somewhat following)

3. Do meditation everyday. Turn spiritual. (Following)

4. Blog! (Following)

5. Go to bed early/ sleep early (Not at all!)

6. Go regularly to Spiritual classes and music classes and practice. (Following)

7. Clean Wardrobe every month Impossible! (Not yet done)

8. Clean study tables every week (Following)

9. Work on your story and song (Following)

10. Listen to your heart. Be a better person (Following)

Seriously, I can’t believe that I made so many resolutions. And following them is even more unbelievable!

5) How did you spend your New Year night?

My cousins came over to my home. Mom and dad went out. So the whole house was under our control and was free to us = its party time, baby! We had a nice time.

6) The one great thing you finished in 2010. What is that?

The lyrics for my song. ;)

7) The one great thing you could not finish in 2010. Now what is that?

Recording my song. :(

8) The one thing that you did not expect to happen in 2010?

My brother visiting Dubai thrice in the same year.

9) What was the worst that happened in this year?

Nothing!

10) What was the best that happened in this year?

Met God and became close friends with him. He rocks!

Let us pray that 2011 will be amazing. By the way, don’t forget that it’s nearing 2012. So if this is one of those last years of mankind, enjoy it … but I tell you, the whole 2012 stuff is crap! So it’s up to you whether you wanna enjoy 2011 or not.